Hi
I am back after a really long time... feels great to check my blog after years together and it feels even better to write here again....

News: I am now married and mother of a 1 year daughter named Eshal

Life has changed and turned 360 degrees fr me .... Its just not the same what it used to be when i was a blogger ... :P

I am in Bangalore (i remember the old post "Bangalore Phobia" ) .. it makes me laugh at my self now tat its my hometown ... destiny !!

Well ... looking forward to restart the writer in me ...
Lets hope it is not dead or atleast not caught too much rust .. :P

Cya

Kholo Kholo darwaaze…. (Taare Zameen Par )

Kholo Kholo darwaaze, parde karo kinaare ,khute se bandhi hai hawa mil ke chudao saare

Aajao patang le ke , apne hi rang leke asmaan ka shaamiyana aaj hamein hai sajaana

Kyon is qadarr hairaan tu ? mausam ka hai mehmaan tu !!

Hhmm … Duniya saji … tere liye !! Khudko zara … pehchaan tu !

Tu dhoop hai !!

Cham se bikhar ..

Tu hai nadiiii O bekhabar !

Beh chal kahiin , ud chal kahiin dil khush jahaaan teri toh manzil hai wahinnn!!!!!

hhmm … Kyon is qadarr hairaan tu ? mausam ka hai mehmaan tu !!

Baasi zindagi udaasi taazi hasne ko razi garma garam saari abhi abhi hai utaari..

Hhhhhmm …zindagi toh hai bataasha meethi meethi si hai aasha chakh le rakh le ..hatheli se dhakh ke ise

Tujhme agar pyaas hai ? Baarish ka ghar bhii paas hai !

Haaaaan roke tujhe .. koi kyon bhala ??sang sang tere aakaash hai ..

Tu dhoop hai !!

Cham se bikhar ..

Tu hai nadiiii O bekhabar !!

Beh chal kahiin , ud chal kahiin dil khush jahaaan teri toh manzil hai wahi!!!!!

Khul gayaa asmaan ka rasta dekho …khul gaya

Mil gaya kho gaya tha jo sitaara .. mil gaya… mil gaya !

Roshan hui ..saree zameen, jagmag hua saraa jahaan

hhhmm…udne ko tu azaad hai !! bandhan koi ab hai kahaan ..

Tu dhoop hai !!

Cham se bikhar ..

Tu hai nadiiii O bekhabar

Beh chal kahiin , ud chal kahiin dil khush jahaaan teri toh manzil hai wahinnn!!!!!

Kyon is qadarr hairaan tu ? mausam ka hai mehmaan tu !!

Just want to write something but cant understand what to write about ..

Its 4:40 pm and Im in the office pretending to work !!!

I can hear the keyboard sound and mouse clicks …

I can hear some guys talking about a show shopper bug in their project,

I can hear my director screaming in a meeting ,

I can c some other’s busy with work, while some are completely idle …

I can hear some, busy with their client conference calls

I can see jules browsing some funny websites and playing with some complex images .. guess he too doesn’t have any work

Mario is as usual giggling and laughing. He sent me a msg on our local IP:

‘CHOR chor CHOR chor CHOR’

I call him a chora !!

Most of the chairs seem to be empty as ganesh chaturthi celeberations still continue.

Bu I don’t understand why do I have to sit on my chair and pretend I am working !?? .. L Cant I just run away , probably go for shopping or just try and catch an early bus for home.

Anyways cant help it … I tried doing some testing but a build error popped up and I dint bother to look into it………..forget it man !!

Have been kinda free past few days , which is very rare !! So I tried to study something for my certification exam that I plan to answer next month , But that too cant keep me busy for a long time …I wonder y do I get so bored !!!

Past 2 years I have never experienced this !!

My friend jayesh also is on a leave for a week… L so I have absolutely no one to share my boredom with. No one from my team is present today at work!

Oh God !! Pls give me some work before I fall asleep on my desk.

The worst part is that gmail and orkut are blocked ! Cant even chat on yahoo u knw !!

So sad na ?

I have already finished scanning every file on my system , then I tried to upload some photos on ringo to share them with my friends ..only to find that ringo too was blocked !! L .

And im fed up of browsing indiatimes , ndtv , cnnibn .. etc ..etc. I mean how much can one get entertained from the internet ?

So wat do I do now !!?

Let me think…

Shud I ask the HR and make an early exit ? .. naah.. wat wud they think of me?

Shud I speak to some old friends on the phone ? But im running short of talktime too… I feel like the most helpless human on earth..

Not many ppl will like this article .. But just incase there is someone who is sailing in the same boat as mine….. do drop in a comment and pls suggest how to drive away my boredom !!

The Bangalore Phobia………

Bangalore city , the IT Hub of India.

A place where a software professional can reach great heights of career. A land of extreme professionalism. Though there is so much about this city, I have a ‘bangalore phobia’ , one of its own kind , which has an intensity more than any other phobia I suffer from like ‘thundering’ , ‘rats’ …… etc etc.

I pursue a software career in a company in Goa, and believe me my salary is not as fascinating as that of a bangalorian s/w professional but it manages to keep me content till the end of every month ! : ) at least that’s the case…’’aaj tak’’ !!! ;)

Can anyone tell me Y ?? ?? y this bangalore phobia ??! I can t tell …… its just there … need to set it free … but every attempt to do this has failed and further intensified it………….Sigh!!!!!!!

My sister being a bangalore citizen , has been the lone reason for me to visit it at least once in a year…!! [actually its her lovely kids !! ] J

Moment my goa bus enters this city .. believe me my heart beats really fast ……. L

Wat is it abt this place that scares me???

is it the CROWD?? … that makes me feel like some miserable ant. Yea…!!! … it questions me : ‘’Are u fit enuf to stand amongst the enormous crowd of s/w geeks roaming around the streets ???’’’’

…………. and at any point of time my answer is …. ‘Maybe no !! Not Yet! ‘

I always wonder ……… will I ever be !? may be not till I actually stay there.

About my attempts to drive away the phobia…… they merely involve my not so serious job hunting tasks……I don’t remember when I had updated my resume last on the job site !!! Eh…!!! Ridiculous na !!?? … coz I knw every professional in my field must do this …just to know his/her worth in the market !! the JOB MARKET !! Mayb when im completely bored of my work here …I’ll begin the JOB HUNT!!!

No matter how many months of experience I possess…. I will always feel its not enuf … is this happening to me only , OR … ‘aur koi hai!??! Jisko aise hi feel hota hoga !?!?!? ‘ pata nai !! … khair jo bhi ho !!

Goa’s charm , seems not to be ready to leave me …most of all I wud always prefer coming back to my house and having dinner with my family…So what… if I have to compromise a little on my salary here…. ? Tats ok with me !! :P

Lets see what more life has in store for me …. May b one fine day I get the chance to have a taste of jobbing in a metro city !!

Take Care all of u….. J

One of the beautiful places i've got to see....

The Kala Academy Jetty built during the IFFI (International Film Festival Of India)

Life as it seems……………


“Wonder where I shall be in the next few years “ …Just a thought that creeped slowly in my mind as I was done wid my project delivery today…

2 years frm now will I still be the same!? Will I still look the same !? …will I still behave the same or will the age factor come into my childish behaviour …Will I get mature then !? Will I ever mature !? he he he !!!!
I doubt totally !!!!

Well ..wherever and whatever I will be doing ..just hope I still have my friends around me Friends at work just mean so much to me. Sometimes it feels I knew them right from the beginning . It just doesn’t feel lonely anymore …I guess I’ve found a great set of people around me

While I get curious to know my future ..i also believe in Destiny !! This word mite just be the answer to the questions in my mind rite now .

I definitely want to see myself doing well in my career , and more importantly I want to enjoy my work more than I do at present .While I work towards my career I know I need to work on other things…Like weight loss , Savings , and yes a bit more patience and self confidence is what will make me perfect !!!!!
Though we know its difficult to improve perfection ….;-)

No one can know abt their future , What we can do is ..try and make the present worth living !! I realize one thing ..past is Past and can never be changed …but tho’ its natural for most of us to live in the past …..
But y shud we …!? Yes !! y ? Just try and make ur present good ….and yes don’t forget to work hard to make the future a better living !!!!!

Teri Deewani ..............

From the album kailasa ..this amazing song ‘Teri Deewani…’ never fails to touch my heart. Listening to it while writing this article …I really feel lost . Lost in my thoughts. Thinking abt everything that im crazy abt……..God , Dad , Ammi , Aapa , Bhaiya , And my sweet little nephew. I am just flowing in a strong wave of emotions while the lyrics are such that I can completely relate to. There is some strange haunting quality to this song takes u in its stride very well . U just want to listen to it more and more .


Teri Deewani …also well picturised ,a clean video … signifies love and passion . Passion towards one’s love and his beliefs . I just get carried away listening to this song, feel so close to my own self ..as if I were lost in some other world..and now m back.


U must listen to this ……….Unforgettable and Unavoidable .

College to Office …..


College life seems to have left my hand and I hardly had time to realize that
Good old days man ! I miss them ! I miss attending those lectures , bunking those tutorial classes we used to have at PCC .
Sitting wid friends in the corridors and discussing everyting else except studies .
Planning post exams outings …much ahead of the exams !! Cursing the college the university corrections the sem durations the local buses , the timetable the results ….uff !! and yea also the long queue in the library , paisa khao examination and the revaluation forms ! Gosh…what an experience !!!

Besides fooling arnd what I also miss is the sincerity behind studies and the so called replication of submissions, the hardwork behind the last minute preparations ….Uff!!! Those were great days . Rumours abt the results and the lastminute change in time table ….

Then came the days when i realized its time to prove my self …its time to earn urself a living ! to get a JOB!!! This word has haunted me for a long time ……I used to see my friends content with a job before even before passing out of engg ….They were too good !! However hard I tried I never succeeded in clearing those stupid aptitute tests . Huh !!

But yea …I too had my day !!
The day when I happened to clear an aptitude. Was so used to NOT clearing any campus recruitment tests …..i ignored the fact that my name was called out for the Info-ReachTest ….I dint expect that at all ! Guess I was so used to disappointment …..that I dint want to …or rather was skaid to answer my first ever tech interview !! I cudnt belive the fact that I had later cleared the interview too …..

And then started the days ….of working !
The jobbing !!!


Was too excited on joining my first job ….as I just wanted the world to know that I finally had a job. That I was not so dumb !! yes …this was what I went thru

As I was getting used to the new environment ..i also realized the feeling that slowly creeped in my mind. Independence …… I am a grown up girl now …
I had started to take things coolly (which is otherwise not my nature and my friends know that well )

Few words started to become an integral part of my life …
Routine , Projects , Team , Development Testing and last but not the least Deadline ! …..i finally came to know what a deadline is and what it takes to complete one !!
U shud remain as cool as possible…
Believe in the fact that Google can find u everything !! possibly everything on this earth ! lol!!!!
And above all ……don’t think abt the after effects …as the more u think abt the time left and the amount of work left …the more it affects ur work !!!

That’s work !!
Other aspects like Confidence …which I seriously lacked …started to build in me ! I knew I can program …I knew I’m capable of taking up tasks ! that is a great feeling one can possess !!

But what I cannot get back in life is the time I spent wid my lovely friends …
The jokes we cracked ..the laughter, the canteen atmosphere ….their support …their suggestions their comments , their opinions the fights and the compromises !!!
Life cannot give u back these moments ….Coz its those special friends whom one always remembers in happy and sad moments of life !!