Just want to write something but cant understand what to write about ..

Its 4:40 pm and Im in the office pretending to work !!!

I can hear the keyboard sound and mouse clicks …

I can hear some guys talking about a show shopper bug in their project,

I can hear my director screaming in a meeting ,

I can c some other’s busy with work, while some are completely idle …

I can hear some, busy with their client conference calls

I can see jules browsing some funny websites and playing with some complex images .. guess he too doesn’t have any work

Mario is as usual giggling and laughing. He sent me a msg on our local IP:

‘CHOR chor CHOR chor CHOR’

I call him a chora !!

Most of the chairs seem to be empty as ganesh chaturthi celeberations still continue.

Bu I don’t understand why do I have to sit on my chair and pretend I am working !?? .. L Cant I just run away , probably go for shopping or just try and catch an early bus for home.

Anyways cant help it … I tried doing some testing but a build error popped up and I dint bother to look into it………..forget it man !!

Have been kinda free past few days , which is very rare !! So I tried to study something for my certification exam that I plan to answer next month , But that too cant keep me busy for a long time …I wonder y do I get so bored !!!

Past 2 years I have never experienced this !!

My friend jayesh also is on a leave for a week… L so I have absolutely no one to share my boredom with. No one from my team is present today at work!

Oh God !! Pls give me some work before I fall asleep on my desk.

The worst part is that gmail and orkut are blocked ! Cant even chat on yahoo u knw !!

So sad na ?

I have already finished scanning every file on my system , then I tried to upload some photos on ringo to share them with my friends ..only to find that ringo too was blocked !! L .

And im fed up of browsing indiatimes , ndtv , cnnibn .. etc ..etc. I mean how much can one get entertained from the internet ?

So wat do I do now !!?

Let me think…

Shud I ask the HR and make an early exit ? .. naah.. wat wud they think of me?

Shud I speak to some old friends on the phone ? But im running short of talktime too… I feel like the most helpless human on earth..

Not many ppl will like this article .. But just incase there is someone who is sailing in the same boat as mine….. do drop in a comment and pls suggest how to drive away my boredom !!

The Bangalore Phobia………

Bangalore city , the IT Hub of India.

A place where a software professional can reach great heights of career. A land of extreme professionalism. Though there is so much about this city, I have a ‘bangalore phobia’ , one of its own kind , which has an intensity more than any other phobia I suffer from like ‘thundering’ , ‘rats’ …… etc etc.

I pursue a software career in a company in Goa, and believe me my salary is not as fascinating as that of a bangalorian s/w professional but it manages to keep me content till the end of every month ! : ) at least that’s the case…’’aaj tak’’ !!! ;)

Can anyone tell me Y ?? ?? y this bangalore phobia ??! I can t tell …… its just there … need to set it free … but every attempt to do this has failed and further intensified it………….Sigh!!!!!!!

My sister being a bangalore citizen , has been the lone reason for me to visit it at least once in a year…!! [actually its her lovely kids !! ] J

Moment my goa bus enters this city .. believe me my heart beats really fast ……. L

Wat is it abt this place that scares me???

is it the CROWD?? … that makes me feel like some miserable ant. Yea…!!! … it questions me : ‘’Are u fit enuf to stand amongst the enormous crowd of s/w geeks roaming around the streets ???’’’’

…………. and at any point of time my answer is …. ‘Maybe no !! Not Yet! ‘

I always wonder ……… will I ever be !? may be not till I actually stay there.

About my attempts to drive away the phobia…… they merely involve my not so serious job hunting tasks……I don’t remember when I had updated my resume last on the job site !!! Eh…!!! Ridiculous na !!?? … coz I knw every professional in my field must do this …just to know his/her worth in the market !! the JOB MARKET !! Mayb when im completely bored of my work here …I’ll begin the JOB HUNT!!!

No matter how many months of experience I possess…. I will always feel its not enuf … is this happening to me only , OR … ‘aur koi hai!??! Jisko aise hi feel hota hoga !?!?!? ‘ pata nai !! … khair jo bhi ho !!

Goa’s charm , seems not to be ready to leave me …most of all I wud always prefer coming back to my house and having dinner with my family…So what… if I have to compromise a little on my salary here…. ? Tats ok with me !! :P

Lets see what more life has in store for me …. May b one fine day I get the chance to have a taste of jobbing in a metro city !!

Take Care all of u….. J